| Confused |
[Apr. 12th, 2008|08:20 pm] |
| [ | What I'm feeling |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | What's that noise |
| | Death Blooms-Mudvayne | ] |
I feel so lame....sitting at home alone on a Friday night and on a Saturday night. All I did today was go to observation and then watch Pirates 2 and 3 on Friday and now today I have been watching Fruits Basket and now writing a paper and watching MIB sorta.
Good Movies though of course.
On a side note. My friend has been acting strange lately. He came over the other day while I was watching the first Pirates but sat abnormally close to me and was a bit touchy??
I dunno it was weird.....and I don't even want to date him though.
He should also know that I am not ready for that kind of a relationship anyway!
How do I tell him that without being super mean........? |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 7th, 2008|03:47 am] |
Single again....and hating it......
Why is it that when I finally fully open my heart to someone
it gets crushed?
How do I pick up the pieces when I just want him to do it for me.......? |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 5th, 2008|02:08 am] |
| [ | What I'm feeling |
| |  giggly | ] |
| [ | What's that noise |
| | You're a God- Vertical Horizon | ] |
Mountain Dew + Lime things + SoCo = Pretty Tasty |
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| 50 things... |
[Apr. 4th, 2008|03:37 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Moorhead | ] |
| [ | What I'm feeling |
| |  disappointed | ] |
| [ | What's that noise |
| | Your Guardian Angel-Red Jumpsuit Apparatus | ] |
Rules
1)List 50 things you want to say to people, but maybe never will.
2)Don't say who they are.
3)Never discuss it.
4)Doesn't always have to be bad.
1. I could probably make this list totally about you, but the top thing on my mind right now is why you haven't told me you are getting married.
2. I know I joke about flirting, but I actually get jealous very easily.
3. I am sorry for the way I hurt you. I never meant for it to make us stop being close friends and I hope someday it can go back to the way it was.
4. Stop drinking so much. You are a bright kid get your life on track.
5. I love you and I don't want my heart broken.
6. I love that we can sit around and do nothing.
7. I wish that we would talk more while at school, but I am glad nothing changes when we see each other.
8. Don't you ever drink or smoke or do drugs.
9. If you get some girl pregnant before I get pregnant I will come hurt you badly.
10. I really do not like that woman.
11. I wish you would truly talk to me more.
12. What is so complicated? What makes you so confused....I don't know how much more I can take. Why after a year do you not know how you feel?
13. Come home more because I miss your face.
14. Why haven't you ever came to visit me?
15. Do you still like him?
16. Don't give up on what you have. Work for it...imagine what it will be like in the future.
17. You are a wonderful friend, but it would never work.
18. If it doesn't work out, please still be my friend. I would rather you be in my life as a friend than nothing at all.
19. We need a cheaper place to live!
20. Quit messing with guys' hearts. Just because you think that they are different with their feelings doesn't mean they actually are.
21. Quit being dumb and spreading rumors.
22. My life does not revolve around swimming! Quit acting like it does.
23. I wish you would have came to school at Moorhead. I miss having someone that close to me.
24. I trust you completely. Don't make me regret it.
25. I think about you everyday and it scares the crap out of me.
26. You should have never acted like how you did with your children.
27. I miss you kid and I wish I could see you more often.
28. Do I try too hard?
29. You are very demanding of your boyfriend, but he takes it. I think you two are perfect together, and I wish I had that.
30. I miss you. Come home more often.
31. It has been like two years...yes he is kinda a douche but you should forgive him sometime.
32. I never want to lose you.
33. I know they say you are supposed to meet your best friends in college, but I think I did something wrong because I met them in high school.
34. You are the one person at school outside of the swim team that I would trust with anything.
35. I know you say I shouldn't wait anymore, but I love him and the smallest chance is worth it in my mind.
36. I like your family.
37. I won't recognize step-siblings if you get married. The age difference is just too much. I'm growing up and you are not a huge part anymore.
38. I never knew one person could make me feel so comfortable and so nervous/jittery.
39. Sometimes I wonder if you realize how happy you make me.
40. Don't sell the house at the lake because I have always wanted it.
41. I hope you always think of me as your cool sister.
42. Go to college. It will help you in the long run.
43. Quit sitting around at dead-end jobs and work for something you like! You are such a great artist...find something you can do with it.
44. I hate that you drink. I think that is a source of many problems that we have had in our family. And I hope your drinking habits are not passed on.
45. I can't imagine my life where I can't go talk to you. But I just started to realize if a few years...we won't be coming back to Watertown anymore because we will have JOBS! I don't want to lose my best friend.
46. I secretly get a little pleasure out of it when you get jealous.
47. Treat any girl like she is a princess no matter what! Be the nice guy.
48. Don't give me false hope.
49. Thank you for always being there for me. You mean so much to me.
50. Don't regret the choice you make. |
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| Hmmmm |
[Mar. 10th, 2008|02:59 pm] |
| [ | What's that noise |
| | Stone Sour-Through Glass | ] |
Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
I think I might need to take this quote to heart. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 18th, 2008|02:09 pm] |
| [ | What I'm feeling |
| |  dorky | ] |
| [ | What's that noise |
| | Wasteland, 10 years | ] |
Hope you all had a wonderful Valentine's Day!
I forgot I had this photo. :) |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 14th, 2008|02:04 am] |
| [ | What I'm feeling |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | What's that noise |
| | Jeremy Camp | ] |
I Love You.
<3 |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 8th, 2008|11:33 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bed | ] |
| [ | What I'm feeling |
| | lonely | ] |
Things were going along great in my life. I'm still swimming....it's hard but whatever.....I just got back from Florida for our training trip and I worked my ass off. I'm doing better this year and conference in only like 6 weeks away.
School starts tomorrow.....which I guess is early but ya know whatever I would have to go back sometime anyway.
Christmas was amazing....Not just the gifts I received but I got to have three....I spent it with my brother and father....my mother and her side of the family....and my boyfriends family. I had such an amazing time at all three.
So ya know overall nothing terrible had been going on. I should have known that it wouldn't last long. For those of you that know me know that I have had an amazing time with my boyfriend....we have been dating just over a year now....but he hadn't told me he loved me....
I do love him. He makes me really happy....but he told me a story about him and his last girlfriend last night. About how he had told her that he loved her and eventually led up to how he just can't see past lust for me.
He didn't break up with me....because he wants to see what will happen I guess in the next couple months but I can't help but think of the worse already. I did tell him that I love him.....and not having him say it back and this whole situation is one of the most painful things I have ever done. I'm sure I cried for a good hour.
I have no idea what I am supposed to do now....I'm leaving today for school and then I won't really even get to see him because of swimming. I honestly feel hopeless in this situation.....so if you have any words of comfort feel free to leave them. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 13th, 2007|12:04 am] |
| [ | What I'm feeling |
| | crushed | ] |
Everything in my life was going fine until one moment it all crashed and burned. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 14th, 2007|12:14 am] |
| [ | What I'm feeling |
| |  drained | ] |
It's my birthday. Yay.
Too bad I smashed my finger at work tonight.
great start to the birthday. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 25th, 2007|05:02 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Moorhead | ] |
| [ | What I'm feeling |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | What's that noise |
| | Iris-Goo Goo Dolls | ] |
College: Almost done. I will officially be able to leave at 5pm May 8th 2007. Woot.
Although I am not looking forward to finals in the least biology is going to kick my ass.
Hmmm sorta getting over cold....
And I have a triathalon this weekend! 500yard Swim....some obsene amount of biking and a mile run.
not that bad
Not too much has been going on...although Asiya and I did find a new roommate for next year. yayness.
Overall life has been pretty uneventful lately.
meh.
I have decided I have an unhealthy obession over a couple tv shows.
1. House MD
I love House and his snarky attitude.
2. Blood Ties
New show that has captured my attention....it's based of The Blood Blooks...and it's really good so far. Deals with vampires and the like.
Those are the new obsessions....and It's almost sad to admit that Grey's Anatomy is starting to grow on me too....although I still never plan to watch it weekly! |
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| bah |
[Apr. 18th, 2007|12:32 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Moorhead | ] |
| [ | What's that noise |
| | Disturbed | ] |
Soooo.....I decided I get sick waaaaay too often.
I am sick again and I just started to get over a cold.
My body hates me.
Not much has been going on around here, but I do have only one more lab week left! And I don't think you really understand how happy I am.
Finals are just around the corner...and I know they are going to kick my ass....
I am excited to go home though. I applied for the summer coaching job, I want to teach aquacise, and I will be teaching swimming lessons and lifeguarding.
So pretty much this summer is going to be work-filled.
well that is all that has been going on here.....super exciting I know |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 28th, 2007|08:24 pm] |
If a person gets caught up in a lie too long they will start believing it themselves. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 8th, 2007|11:58 am] |
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Can I fuck things up anymore? I doubt it. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 26th, 2007|01:46 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Moorhead | ] |
| [ | What's that noise |
| | Dane Cook | ] |
I just want things to get better. |
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| Valentine's minus the boys |
[Feb. 15th, 2007|02:46 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Moorhead | ] |
| [ | What I'm feeling |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | What's that noise |
| | Mudvayne | ] |
I spend my valentin'es night with my girls up here at the dorms!
It was a fun night filled with Pop, cookie dough, pizza, and ice cream! |
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| On the dock |
[Jan. 12th, 2007|09:27 am] |
I just recently got back from Florida. We were there for a swimming training trip over winter break. It was great fun! This is just one of the many photos I have from when we went to Ft. Myers Beach.
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 22nd, 2006|01:06 pm] |
| [ | What I'm feeling |
| | crushed | ] |
Fucking amazing break so far! |
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| Why I will be remembered |
[Dec. 15th, 2006|12:38 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Dorm | ] |
| [ | What I'm feeling |
| | blank | ] |
| [ | What's that noise |
| | Goo Goo Dolls | ] |
So tomorrow I have my first final of the year. It's a bio final. Let me tell you after all the studying I did I hate biology. |
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